So apparently one of my loves, I let slip away! That was blogging! I realized on my last website post that it felt like decades since i posted before that one. And I was like WHOA VICKI, HOLD THE PHONE! Why the hell did you create this totally awesome site, get these amazing subscribers, and just leave everyone high and dry??
No need to do it, I emotionally did it to myself 🙂 But thank you for thinking the same too!
Anyhow, so many many moons ago, way before I was a mom, and even after I had my son, I would write, blog if you will. If you follow my youtube channel you would see that I also like vlogging, I am obviously not afraid to put my emotional mess of a self out there to all to view, but I miss writing, simply because I feel like I could write down everything I have on my mind, down, without any judgement or critiquing (we all know this is the internet and that is a dirty lie :)) But I like to think so…
so with that said, I am turning my website into something more. Not just tips for health and fitness, or different opportunities or so on and so forth, but I want to have more of a connection, deep shit that I have been through, my friends have been through and maybe, just maybe you can relate and hopefully some of my insight could help you in some way, shape or form!
So let’s get this party started, shall we?
Here is blog 1, on relationships.. and here I sit in bed with my macbook on a Monday night at 830pm. (And by the way, in case you didn’t know, I am an old soul, I love my early bedtimes so don’t you dare judge :))
No the glasses are not real, they don’t even have lenses but they do give me a certain touch!
Okay, so back to the topic of this blog! I chose to talk about relationships and how us women could be complete fuck ups, (don’t get me wrong, men are way worse then us, but I cannot talk about their side cause i was never a man :)) anyhow… the funny thing about this is I have become some crazy relationship guru. I have no idea how, I mean failed marriage, then a boyfriend who didn’t work out, then to a guy that didn’t want anything “serious” with me, although now I have found a man who I truly believe is my soulmate (or lobster if you ever have watched Friends :)), but I feel like i have failed time and time again, yet I have so many people coming to me for relationship advice.
So I will jump right into the most recent conversation that me and one of my very closest friends had. She had this horrible falling out with this man. I personally wasn’t a fan of him, but that’s nor here or there. Well my girl didn’t understand how things went wrong, how she always felt like things never happened the way they should have, or that she was always disappointed.
And the ONLY REASON I can ever answer any questions that people ask me, is because I HAVE BEEN THERE, DONE THAT!
Anyhow, can to her dilemma. When we were talking, I was blindsided with what came out of my mouth, because I too have felt like this. When you are in a shitty relationship (or a few of them) you tend to take certain aspects with you, and we all know it’s not on purpose!
I told her that as women who have been in not the best of hands, there is something triggered in us, where we never have felt a certain way, but have the need to feel it, or maybe we want certain situations to go a certain way, but it doesn’t, or maybe we just have so much damn control and things need to go our way, and if they don’t, we get irritated.
FIRST OFF, we need to stop over thinking! That does no one any good at all.
Secondly, we need to learn to live in the moment. Not worry about the past or the future, or what could have should have yadda yadda yadda! Just live in THAT moment, that you are in and focus on it and nothing else.
and thirdly and most certainly not of any less importance, LET SHIT GO! It’s hard! I am going to be the first one to tell you how hard it is, especially those times that shitty shit happened and it hurt so bad that it made you feel like puking, or those times where you were laying in fetal position crying so hard, um……. neither of those make you feel good, and anything that makes you feel bad should not be kept in that little cute memory bank of yours.
If it doesn’t make you happy, LET IT GO! End of story! It’s not going to happen over night, just like my ass doesn’t shrink overnight (although i feel like it can expand overnight), but as long as you work at it every single day, it will get better! And if you have a girlfriend who has been through it to talk to, talk to her. I am not talking about your friends who are going to judge you or say “I told you so”, no, talk to that girlfriend that knows that shitty shit feeling, like could be your shoulder to cry on than give you a swift kick in the ass!
You will never be able to have better relationships if you keep reliving the past! BOOM! #REALTALK
So that is that, all you kids get tonight!
Btw I should have warned you, sometimes I cuss when i write, and almost always I use bad english or bad punctuation, and I am completely okay with that, and I hope you are too!
Goodnight my loves!